It is almost the month that I lost my brother. Always in July the air turns thick and hot, my breathing gets more shallow, my heart races and sleepness nights continue. I hate this time of year more than any other. I feel like someone is kicking me when I am already down.
Archive for June, 2009
Heavy Heart
Thursday, June 25th, 2009Pain Highway
Monday, June 8th, 2009I am getting ready to go see the scene of the “accident” where my brother’s body was broken and his soul left the earth. I am afraid, scared, anxious and filled with so many emtions I cannot put them into words. I cannot stop thinking about this little piece of highway. The fact that thousands of cars drive by daily and aloof drivers pass the spot were my brother’s life ended and my life changed forever. Is is good to go back? Is this good for me? I am still in the bad dream I feel stuck in so many days of my life?
