I can almost laugh about it amidst all the pain! I hate the “d” word, I think most of you know the word I am talking about. Isn’t funny how the words death or dying rolled off of the tip of your tongue prior to losing your brother or sister, and now you cannot even say those words about your brother or sister. I am sure some of you are like me and think of how many ways you can avoid using those words. You think of all the words you replace the “d” word with- passed, gone, left, went, is away…….etc.
I really doubt I am alone with this one, I am sure I am not the only a life long member of the club nobody wants to be a member of!
Well I most say.. I feel the exact same way about the “d” word as you call it. I have used the words you mentioned. My name is Dalenny, I just lost my brother 5 months ago.. Sept. 24th, eleven days after my birthday.. I completely am with you on this and many other of your posts.
No, you are not alone. I am the same way. Even ten years later I cannot say my brother died or is dead. It is always when he “left”. I lost my brother on his 21st Bday. He got in the car with someone who had been drinking and was in a fatal car crash. Time does lessen the pain but it is definitely a loss you will never get over. What you are feeling is so normal. I have had a fear of death ever since he passed. Since then, I am afraid of everyone dying that I love whereas before I never thought about it too much. Hang in there and trust in Jesus to get you through.
I cannot say it either, I always say “the accident” or “lost” or “heaven” never the dreaded d word…. Dalenny I too lost my brother September 24, 2011. For the rest of my life, I will dread that month and that day…… It was a day I was supposed to be with my brother.